Sunday, September 14, 2008
i do the stupidest things ever. i got out of the shower and was drying my hair in front of the fan, then i sorta notice there wasnt the usual smell of washed hair so i grabbed a bunch of my hair and sniffed it. yeah la quite gross shoving my hair into my nostrils. so anyway it didnt smell like shampoo at all, not smelly la, more like no smell. then i thought: eh? did i wash my hair at all? i dont rem pouring out the shampoo and whatever so i went to check the floor trap thing (where all the gunk is collected and there was some hair there so then i was quite sure i forgot to wash my hair cos i always empty the flap after i wash my hair. yeah i so went in the shower wet my hair, forgot to wash it, scrubbed my body and went out happily thinking i was clean. DOHHH so i went to wash my hair half bending my back. yah i was too consumed by my thoughts. happens whenever im thinking hard bout stuff when im showering ughh it cant even be considered multi-tasking la cos its just bathing and thinking. tsk so distracted.


oh btw posb called and was all apologetic about it. im quite surprised and embarassed that someone actually read my email and gave a shit. srsly.


Sunday, September 07, 2008
i wrote an elaborate freaking long complaint/compliment to POSB cos i was quite pissed off/ pleased. yeah its complicated. i know it sounds shit informal but i dont care i guess someone gets paid to read whatever ppl send in right??

here goes:

Since posb is part of DBS i suppose its appropriate to complain here? I've tried applying for ibanking several times through the atm but was shown :transaction failed. In the meantime, I went to the POSB bishan branch to set up a joint account, filled in forms to update whatever information needed. At the same time I told them i had problems with ibanking and they informed me it was because my address was not updated. They then told me I could proceed to do the application over the ATM after setting up my joint account. And I did, but it failed to go through, so i thought maybe the system needed some time to update and i tried again few days later, but it still failed. So i called up the help hotline (1800 111 1111) and she told me to send in a printed application form and i did, then i received an sms from dbs saying it failed and asked me to call this 6887 number which i called a few times but nobody picked up. You would think any normal person would have given up and perhaps leapt off in building in frustration by now, but i called the help hotline again and after much checking here and there, the person told me it was because my address was not updated and that i needed to go down to the branch. So i did, just for the purpose of updating my address. That night, i tried applying through the internet and it failed yet again. Yes, seriously. By this time i was suitably pissed off and the phone operator on the helpline had to bear the brunt of it. But she was really helpful and patient and said she'll make sure my address is updated and would give me a call when its done. She listened to my long story and was really nice about it although it totally was not her fault so i hope she gets an award for best employee or something. She called me back in a few days and her name is Shauna/ Shawna so actually this is a compliment in disguise and i thought it would get more attention if i chose 'complaint' under type of feedback. Then again posb bishan really screwed up so i wish they would be informed not do it again. Thanks for your time.



btw i feels so early 2000's still using blogger. but why is everyone switching to lj anyways i hate lj.


Friday, April 04, 2008
Sigh i have that heart sinking to my feet feeling again. Both physically and mentally. im so so so tired and there's nothing to look forward to except my bed, which although seems like the best thing is but an inanimate object. i should be contented cos sleep is probably just what i need but im not. oh well. i really should be happy with what i have. Anyway vic told me, and i agree that the vicious cycle is starting again. Like i get so tired i dont do my work and i just keep not doing it until its the exams and i realize how screwed i am but its too late. i kept telling myself i wont let it happen and let myself fail again but its quite happening again! then i looked back and i cant even remember what the hell i was doing last time wasting my time away in jc. which is stupid cos it was significant enough i would have remembered. and i cant believe talking to my com actually helped, i feel less shitty now yay excuse while i pop a champagne. omg sleep deprivation and proj deadlines does things to ur mind.

I never understood why people's actions differ from their words.


Saturday, December 22, 2007
The past week hasnt exactly been great. Wow i just made the understatement of the century. srsly, i've been sleeping so little and its getting to me a bit and feelling cranky and rather appetiteless. ( waste of money when i cant finish my food :( ) lemme try to recall the events

Monday: went msia and got dunkin donuts yay( one of the better parts of the week) Fell down (ya i know wth) on my butt in a class full of ppl, in the gym. got up quickly but instructor alr half ran towards me ( btw he's like this handsome hot bod dancer/ fat burning circuit whatever instructor) damn. followed by the almost worst night of my life. ugh waste money somemore bloody rising cab fares.

Tues: couldnt sleep and felt super shitty but awake. stupidly took terence's ( my hero) wallet accidentally so he had to come get it :S

Wed: had to wake early for work at 830, damn sleepy dozed off while reading readers digest then realized got some ppl at the door knocking ( im suppose to press this release button to let them in) bet tthey caught me sleeping cos its a glass door. but whatever la its a few day job anyway. sorta went shopping after that, real tired slept at 10pm all the way to 12 the next day. SHIOK.

Thurs: blahhblah who cares what i did on thurs really. waha why am i documenting my week anyway i feellike rolling my eyes at myself. actually the main point of this entry to to bitch about me feeling troubled and hating seemingly solution-less problems which are not mine actually. sigh i wish i knew what to do wish jannah was here (when/ if u're reading this its probably blown over or at least i hope so) ........................ okay i still dont reeally feel better damnit. and i still got a ton of presents to wrap and i cant even wrap them on my table cos its covererd with 3 inch high of whatever i dumped on it and i've got a wedding to attend tmr and i havent iron my dress and repaint my nails and im sorta preparing for a phone call which im not even sure will come and its stressing me out cos im afraid i wouldnt know what to say and wind up not accomplishing anything or making it worse even damnit. ahhhhhhhh.


Sunday, September 09, 2007
The past week had been damn action packed, mainly filled by doing proj(which we FINALLY handed in) and i still manage to have fun :D am i well balanced or what. hah.. okay maybe not really with the sleeping part but i read this off some advert somewhere: Live, Love, Laugh. Sleep later. hahah.. i am content as of now, and i think it somewhat is due to my low expectations. A friend said some ppl are happy or whatever cos they have low or no expections. then why be hopeful or have high expectations only to get let down? i'd rather not be hopeful or expect too much because ive learnt that more than often, things or ppl dont turn out the way u want them to and i dont blame them. At least u wont be beating youself up too hard instead u'd just be telling yourself "see, i was right" or "its okay cos i didnt expect much anyways" (but of course dont mean in terms of studies or personal goals la.) ya okay end of reflections.




Quite amazing the way the cold killed it huh. hah im gonna take a nice sunday afternn nap now yay :)


Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Because, such is life.

Why do i only realise the importance of ppl only when they are leaving?
Why are we given hope only to be disappointed?
Why am i affected when i know i shouldnt be?
Why why why?

and whytf did we spend away the entire morning discusing our proj only to realise we have chosen the wrong model to follow at the end of the day? its is very superbly insanely upsetting cos now we hafta do that part ALL OVER AGAIN. very draining. cant wait for sat when we hand it in.


Sunday, August 26, 2007
The first high


im so happy it feels unreal. But it is! :) It's been too long since sth good happened and yes, finally it did yay yayayayay hahah but shit later got tuition and got project to prepare sian. hah should get some sleep bye!


Wednesday, August 15, 2007
i think what i really need for my birthday (ahem its only 2 months away! ), besides a new phone, is one of those electric bug killers that looks like a badminton racket. cos im so sick of using my slipper/rolled up newspaper/conventional fly slapping swat which has holes for insect bits to fly thru when u whack em real hard (yes they do dont ask me how i know i might barf). so yeah i need one. and im taking my final theory (again) tmr. sigh i ought to be studying so off i go!


Thursday, August 02, 2007
since pri 6, i've been keeping a journal (of course there are like 5 journals alr) and it turned from a daily thing to a once in 3-4months kinda thing. and if i had my table and the privacy of a rm i'd be writing in it instead of typing it here. yeah the contents abt the same but strangely i feel less conspicuous typing rather than madly scribbling into a notebk cos if someone walked into u journaling and asked: what are u doing? it'll be easier to answer if u're on the com i guess. u could say 1) typing essay 2) doing work 3) surfing porn 4) shopping or sth like that. and vic sd journals leave evidence like if u suddenly died then ppl( actually just ur family, which is bad enough) will know all ur secrets. ya horrrrr, but heck. i like to physically pen things down la. but siince its so late and i dont like writing on my dining table, here i am. and i'd like to bitch about a couple of things ( ya la ya la i suppose to a contented girl screw that)

1) the stupid excel hw i did till 2 last night, guess what. he didnt even check. tamade!

2) the thing im sleeping on (rectangular springy 4 wheeled thing), i dont like to consider it a bed anymore the bloody wheels keep breaking to bits wtf la im nt even that heavy la (eh stop sniggering)

3) im tired of telling my mom who im going out with cos either my friends or i get judged and it really pisses me off both ways

4) its draining to have responsibility guilt and all those emotions weighing me down/holding me back ( yeah i know thats really selfish but im human too)

wish i could fast forward to 1 yr later.

oh i read somewhere that writing down things that happened that day which made u happy would make u feel happier. ha so here goes

1) i made some vinyl art thing today with sherm and it was damn cute.( u know those rubbery pics whose outlines u squeeze colours into, those that only toddlers do) ahah i chose this picture of a frog and rabbit with a flower between them. they also appeared in 2 other templates so i suspect they might be lovers. quite pleased with the way it turned out :)

2) watched the simpsons! damn freaking funny i loved it! and 200 pound beauty was v nice also. everyone should watchhh hah

3) tmr got no sch yay

im v schlippy alr goonight


Wednesday, August 01, 2007
i am quite satisfied with myself now cos i just finished my bc hw yay. its some simple excel thing la, but still, i knew nuts bout excel cos we didnt use it in jc AT ALL. Anyway i found a new favourite hobby just now. i was trying to close my drawer and it wouldnt close cos it was bursting with stuff so i decided to pack it abit. i found 3 empty envelopes (was adressed to me but stripped of its contents alr), 1 korean instant noodle wrapper (yeah i know, wth was i thinking), 1 subway menu and 1 empty kodak envelope and TONS of cards, letters and whatnots. some of which i forgot i ever received. they were screaming to be reopened and read again so i had to, and it was the single most fufilling and joy-inducing thing i've done today. so i spent like 45 mins reading old birthday/random/christmas cards and being happy. sure it wasnt all happy clappish but it still was nice. Think this hobby will last like max 1 wk before i run out of stuff to read. damn. waaaaa v hungry but gotta sleep alr morning session tmr :(